Just cause everything changing, doesn't mean it's never been this way before.

All you can do is try to know who your friends are, as you head off to the war.
Pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light.

Why why why would I ever have chosen to do this? All these fuggin lies! What the hell is wrong with me? Everything I've ever told you is a lie. A lie, a lie, a lie. I don't know why I did this; basically impulse. I think i have a mental disorder. LYING is what 4 year olds do. Not 13 year olds! What the frick do I have to do to start over now? I'll explain everything in a post tomorrow, because I'm on my itouch right now. just know I don't hate myself, I hate what I've become.

Hey Christine, I'm sorry.